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April 04, 2003 - 12:39 a.m. Icky feeling in my tummy... I'm such a sponge. Grmph. From the day that I could walk, the thing I practiced most was hiding... being invisible... I hid anywhere I could fit. And darkness - it's so comforting - I felt relief because it makes me that much more invisible... I still miss the places I felt safest - those that I grew too big to fit in anymore... I remember how they smelled: wooden spice~ behind the pots and pans - under the stove... warm comfort~ the linen closet - top shelf, behind the blankets... cold calm~ behind the big wooden bed - mildew from the moisture in the mountains... on-guard~ in the camper/van - dusty, musty... breezy escape~ up in a tree - pine or oak or walnut, as far up as I could get... Basically, I tried to hide anywhere and everywhere. Meanness was all around me, being tossed casually, or launched ferociously...
I want cuddles now. Kitty sleeps sweetly - she's got the right idea...
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