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May 05, 2003 - 6:53 p.m. WARNING: y'all might want to skip this one Letter to Eenami:
It's three years today. Three years since that decision was made - no turning back - and it was a relief. No doubts, it was the right choice. It is also the deepest scar I carry. I killed something trying to grow inside of me - when instinct should have made me nurturing and caring - I rejected a life. Your life - and a version of mine that I couldn't see myself surviving through - being tied to him forever...
P.S. Yes, I am selfish. Yes, I am blunderful. Yes, I will always hold this lament in my heart. But I will smile for you - in honor of you - I will share in life's joy - this is all that I can offer - or else your death would be for naught. So on this day, I remember you. Forgive me for my prayers that tomorrow I will forget. Yeah, I could really use a hug right now. Maybe a tub of ice cream, and a stupid movie, a foot rub...
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